BXBX NOVEL Chapter 62: Who I am?
I don't know, I really don't know what to think anymore. I'm confused about my existence.
Who am I?
I only felt the vast darkness consuming my soul; it was as if there was no light, but at the same time it was comforting, the feeling... it was good.
The traces of my mind are breaking; memories are confused, and I get lost whenever I try to remember things when I'm in this dark world.
My actions don't match who I am; I've been doing things I would never do, yet I feel like it's normal to do so, as if there's something wrong with me.
Who am I?
Dante? Or... Who? What was my name? I wanted to remember, but I only feel an eternal void that doesn't let me move forward. It's not a normal wall, it's more like a...
seal...
Who am I?
Why am I here? Why did I reincarnate in this world that seems more like a fusion of my imagination and my desires? Am I alive? Or am I in hell being tortured in a different way?
My actions contradict themselves. I allowed myself to be bullied... to keep up appearances? No. Of course not. But why...
Why do I keep having these dreams? Why do I have everything and, at the same time, have nothing?
Who am I?
Why am I acting like this right now, when I should be happy, be well? When I finally managed to let go a little, to be more myself... Why does it keep disturbing me every passing moment, driving me crazy with these visions of my past, without context... What is making me like this?
Who am I?
I remembered the feeling of blood on my hands, I felt strong, for the first time... I... I don't know who I am anymore.
What have I become? Did I almost kill those people in the arena? Did I do all that for what? My actions are exaggerated, my thoughts are confused, my pains become my strength and my strength is absorbed by my traumas. I no longer know who I am.
It's me... And not knowing who I am can kill me.
Trembling.
I collapsed and began to fall into the infinite black abyss, an eternal limbo of pain and despair, but at the same time... peaceful. Why does it feel so good? Is it bad to think this is good?
When I realized it, I was standing again in a completely black world. Of course, it wasn't the first time I was there; in fact, I was always there. I spent several years in this place, it was a familiar feeling, as if... as if it were my home.
But I couldn't accept that. It would be impossible to live in emptiness. I don't want to be empty.
But if I don't even know who I am, how can I not want to be something? If I am nothing... Nothing is me... Then, why do I have desires? Why do I think? If I live in Nothing, and Nothing is me...
Why do I think?
Damn it, I'm starting to go insane. Please... If there's anyone here, get me out! I screamed, of course, but I knew nothing would happen.
"Who are you?" The voice again, different from before, but similar. It was gruff and somewhat doubtful, but I didn't respond. I stood still in the infinite, giving up on reflecting on myself, just letting time pass.
"You have to accept who you are." I heard the voice, but I didn't pay attention, now sounding like that of an old man, perhaps an elder.
"Come to me, Legacy." The voice said, and as I pondered on it, I realized I had no other choice.
"Where are you?" I asked aloud, but the voice didn't respond. I closed my eyes and opened them again. I was lying on the floor of the living room in the apartment at the Kryosis Academy, just another dream... Every day, I face this. What does he mean by "Come to me?" I don't know.
But in the end...
Who am I? That's my only question.
"I hate this," Dante said, getting up from the floor, completely exhausted. Even in sleep, there was no peace to relax. Every day, this nightmare repeated itself, as he kept trying to decipher its meaning.
"Reincarnation is my ass," he cursed as he stretched and headed for the bathroom. The door was closed, but he ignored that fact and moved towards it.
"Today is Saturday, what is that crazy girl going to come up with?" Dante wondered as he walked down the hallway, referring to Sara Vortex. "Ah, screw it, she's distancing herself from me anyway."
He stopped in front of the bathroom, head hanging low as he looked at the doorknob. He felt something, but ignored it, then gently pushed open the bathroom door and took a step inside.
"Eh...?" Dante raised his head and froze.
There was a girl inside.
A strange silence fell over the small room.
The girl was Sara. She was leaning forward while keeping her two thumbs on her panties, as if she were taking them off or putting them on. He was completely interrupted from any previous thoughts he had. She looked at him completely stunned.
It was a misunderstanding?
The two stared at each other for about three seconds, but it was enough for Sara to have a slight panic attack, and as she was about to scream...
"IT'S A MISUNDERSTANDING!" Dante shouted at the top of his lungs, activating a silence spell around them.
Sara was completely shocked and fell to the ground in fright, her legs slightly apart.
Dante, for the first time, saw what Sara's winter flower looked like.
"KYAAAAAAAA!" She screamed loudly, quickly covering herself.
"I SAW NOTHING!" He shouted and ran out. 'Why am I like this? I've seen Morgana and Valentina! I thought I was used to it!'
"COME BACK HERE NOW!" She shouted, making Dante's whole body tremble. He had no choice but to return.
He cautiously stepped back and peeked through the open door again. When he saw the next scene, he swallowed hard.
"Come here," she said dominantly, and Dante approached. Sara was already standing, fully dressed, and walked slowly toward Dante.
"First, you spy on me changing when we first met, then you kiss a girl and try to make excuses, and now not only do you see my panties, but you see me without them... Death would ease my pain. How about you just kill yourself, Dante?" She said with a smile, and Dante stood frozen.
But before he could say anything, a loud slap echoed through the hallway.
SLAP!
It was a slap. Needless to say, the door was open, and Dante stumbled into it, falling backward onto the floor outside. Right after...
Sara started walking over Dante until she reached his face, shoving her feet in his face and stepping on his face.
But Dante... Well... Again she was careless, and her panties were visible. But, let's just say the Clearwater Queen really liked water.
'She's wet...' Dante thought, observing the damp spots on Sara's white panties. Needless to say, but Dante's Dragon was slowly awakening...