BXBX NOVEL Chapter 72: Feeling
After all, based on all the stories he had heard so far, the Patriarch was a selfish person. He didn\'t want to sacrifice his life for future generations, but Alex knew that\'s not what MingYue was asking for, even though she said it like that.
"Well, that\'s not important. In the end, they betrayed you for their own selfish desire."
"Yeah, they are so stupid. If they knew what I\'m capable of now, I\'m sure they would regret it!"
\'I know it; she just wants approval to appease her guilt. She probably feels guilty about burning down her old home.\' Alex thought, then continued, "They should have known better and trusted you. Your Patriarch really doesn\'t deserve his position.
I wonder why all the elders agreed to the Patriarch? No matter what, you are their best talent."
"Hmmph, not just that. I\'m not boasting, Alex. I have more talent than my mom, so in all three generations, I am the best, and they couldn\'t even patiently wait for me.
I didn\'t even ask for their support and looked for resources with my own hands, those stupid geezers!! And you know what the most annoying thing is?"
"What?"
"I even sent them some resources on my own! Sometimes, without the sect knowing, I slipped some resources I hadn\'t used, risking punishment!
I did my best for them! And how do they repay me?
Not even a single shred of appreciation? They just went ahead and sold my information and profited from it!
Those stupid geezers deserve to burn in HELL!!! A family like this doesn\'t need to exist!" MingYue cursed, her voice rising high in tone.
Alex could then hear her voice turn to sobs.
"Even my mom and dad! Why don\'t they even glance at me!? They just come and say it to MingHao! Don\'t I deserve it too?
Can\'t they say those things directly to me? Tell me the truth?
Am I not family to them? Am I adopted? What is with this unfair treatment!? Just drop dead for all I care!!"
Hearing her voice crack in the end, Alex sighed. He stopped using his ability, as he could relate to part of it.
Her mouth and lips may spit curse, but what she really felt was clear as day to Alex. "Don\'t worry. I am sure both of them are alive. At that time, you can tell it to their faces."
"I don\'t care!!! It doesn\'t matter…" Her cracked voice trailed off. She paused for a few moments, then asked in a low voice, "How are you sure they are alive?"
"Because they should stay alive to make it up to you. You deserve an explanation from their own mouth." Alex says with a sigh, then continues.
"MingYue, they left some items for you. That means they knew you would survive somehow, even though this doesn\'t justify not telling you anything.
This is just a suggestion. Next time you meet them, be more selfish."
"Selfish? What do you mean? Do you think I am not selfish?
As a cultivator, how many people do you think lost their lives at my hand? I know how other people see me, Alex."
"But that\'s not how your parents see you. Since you were a kid, you always acted maturely in front of them.
You never complain, you never make trouble. Doesn\'t your brother do all those?"
"Hmph, that brat. Every day, he always plays pranks and creates problems. You don\'t know how many times I\'ve asked for forgiveness for his actions."
"That\'s what I mean. Since you never do all those, they probably see you as someone who will understand and know what needs to be done. They don\'t realize all this is not just burdening your shoulders but also causing pain in your heart.
It\'s better to vent and make a problem than to keep it in, MingYue. I know it firsthand; holding those emotions is like cancer; it will not do you any good."
MingYue turned silent for a moment, then asked in a low voice, "What do you mean, you know it firsthand?"
"I have told you what happened with my dad. After that, my mom and sis got into fights a lot, and even now, their relationship is not mended. But me? I kept it all in.
Who could I tell what I feel? My mom and sis still tried hard to face the truth when I had already accepted he was dead.
With nowhere to vent, I turned to games, manga, and novels. I spent all my time doing those and barely interacted with anyone.
When I met my mother and sister, I put a smile on my face. And you know what? Every single day, before I slept, my heart felt pain inside.
People say time will heal pain, then I will tell you that\'s just bullshit.
The more time spent, the more it festers. It will reach a point where you learn to live with it, not that it heals."
MingYue had always seen Alex as someone cheerful and positive; she had never realized he was burdened by things like that.
Even now, she could hear him saying it in a normal tone, "I never knew you had that kind of pain, Alex. You never show it."
"Yes, that\'s why I told you. When you meet them, tell it to their faces. It\'s alright to act like a spoiled child toward them. Aren\'t they your parents?"
"You\'re right. I will do that next time… How about you then? Why don\'t you do the same?"
MingYue then heard a dry chuckle from the other side, "I\'m fine. As I said, you learn to live with it.
Anyway, MingYue is just an example. There is no need to think about it too much. Now that you feel better, I want to tell you about the dungeon."