BXBX NOVEL Chapter 1004: Didn’t Have that Doki-Doki Feeling
Chapter 1004: Didn’t Have that Doki-Doki Feeling
“I’m not worthy of you anymore. Big Brother Wenlang, I’ve let you down.” Xia Xiaoman felt like her heart had died.
Ning Shu saw that there were marks near Xia Xiaoman’s collar. The kiss marks were a little bruised. It was easy to see how enthusiastic Chu Xiaoran had been.
Good thing they hadn’t been so enthusiastic that Xia Xiaoman couldn’t get off the bed.
As Xu Wenlang was pouring all the energy he had into building their future so that Xia Xiaoman would be able to have a stable life after they got married, so that Xia Xiaoman would be able to live as a happy missus, Xia Xiaoman was already lying below another man’s body.
Even when something like this happened, Xia Xiaoman didn’t discuss it with Xu Wenlang and solemnly and tragically took everything upon herself and fed the wolf with her body. She even felt like she had sacrificed herself for the sake of everyone else’s happiness.
It was unbelievable.
“What exactly happened, Xiaoman? I still have a case I need to work on. Are you serious about breaking up?” Ning Shu lifted her wrist to glance at her watch.
Xia Xiaoman took a deep breath. “Big Brother Wenlang, don’t ask me what happened, I don’t want to talk about it. Even I hate myself now. Big Brother Wenlang, you’ll meet a better girl.”
Ning Shu nodded. “If this is what you wish for, I’ll agree to it.”
Xia Xiaoman’s tears streamed down her cheeks. She looked towards Ning Shu through her tears. “Big Brother Wenlang, I wish you happiness.”
Ning Shu nodded.
It was pretty ironic. Every time Xia Xiaoman was hurt, she would come find Xu Wenlang and cry. It caused Xu Wenlang to always feel like his heart was being grilled on a pan and he did everything he could to rescue Xia Xiaoman from Chu Xiaoran.
However, Xia Xiaoman would then stop Xu Wenlang and say that Chu Xiaoran was too powerful, that he couldn’t win. Ning Shu didn’t know if it was truly because of this, or because Xia Xiaoman secretly couldn’t bear to leave Chu Xiaoran.
Xia Xiaoman just had Stockholm syndrome. She had developed feelings for the person that hurt her and didn’t want to face the problems. She fled and forgot all the painful things that had hurt her, and actually managed to get a happy ever after in the end.
She was seriously a f*cking m.
Love was when two people cared for each other and were inseparable, a soft and hazily beautiful thing. If this was love, all Ning Shu could say was that this twisted love looked nowhere close to wonderful. It didn’t seem to be something to be longed for at all.
Xu Wenlang respected Xia Xiaoman a lot. The most intimate he got was kissing her, and all these past years, he had never cheated on her. Someone he had protected for so many years had suddenly been snatched away by a wolf. He had been killed and his love was stolen. Xu Wenlang hated Chu Xiaoran a lot, and he was also angry and disgusted with Xia Xiaoman.
He was angry with Xia Xiaoman for not loving herself. No amount of excuses could cover the stupidity and frivolousness that came from Xia Xiaoman’s very bones. There were clearly a lot of ways to solve this, but she chose the stupidest method possible. The part that made Xu Wenlang even more disgusted was that Xia Xiaoman actually fell in love with Chu Xiaoran.
Chu Xiaoran treated her that way and trampled on her, but she actually fell in love with Chu Xiaoran and in the end, actually said that she had always thought of Xu Wenlang as an older brother. She said that when she was Xu Wenlang, her heart was very calm. She didn’t have that heart-pounding feeling like when she was with Chu Xiaoran.
Eff your doki-doki feeling! She had even gotten addicted to being tormented?
Xu Wenlang’s wish was to take revenge on Chu Xiaoran. As for Xia Xiaoman, Xu Wenlang didn’t really have any feelings left for her. He didn’t want to hold on to anything, but he also didn’t want to see her happy.
So when Xia Xiaoman brought up breaking up, Ning Shu straightforwardly agreed. She had no desire to fight over a woman with a man.
The most important part was that she didn’t want to be a trash can, a trash can that Xia Xiaoman could call whenever and cry to. Xia Xiaoman always looked like she was in so much pain and had so much hatred, but couldn’t voice anything. Whenever a misunderstanding occurred, she would be like I can’t tell even if I die while sobbing. Just the sight of her was irritating.
Xia Xiaoman would always look for Xu Wenlang to have a good cry, but after she finished crying, she’d still go back to Chu Xiaoran’s side and endure the humiliation to do the things that a mistress was supposed to do.