356 354. Youssef And Jonas
"Yes, Master Bernice, I will guide you."
The three of them cleaned up and left the room.
And Bernizi, which was beside him, slapped Jonas lightly on the shoulder.
I noticed that there was an unexpected amount of strength in it, but even if I turned around, I could only see its back.
Jonas, in the chair.
Saying that, Youssef tries to get up.
"You can stay lying down.If anything happens to your body-- "
"Temple, it\'s the safest. Look at it, talk to it."
I don\'t think they\'re willing to give up on this.
Jonas rolls up the pillows and extra blankets and puts them between the headboard and Youssef.
Leaning against it, he hungry his fingers for his disturbed sandy hair.
As Jonas sat on the chair on the bed, he began to speak in a slightly low voice.
"One day, I think Najah should tell me."But time, opportunity - I don\'t know where to go. "
I\'m sure you\'re refusing to pay attention to Elald.
Surely, Youssef may not come to the Ordine Kingdom next time.
"I apologize, Jonas. Everything, I, I was weak, the reason."
"\'Why do I have to apologize? You and I have no connection other than our mother."
The Ishrana word came out of the list of words that Yusef did not understand.
"\'Do you mind if I speak Ishrana from here?\'"
The relaxed sound of it has always been this masculine.
Jonas nods silently.
"Najah said she wanted to talk from her own mouth one day.But it\'s hard for her to come to Ordine.I don\'t know if there is a next time.So, it\'s my judgment, my responsibility to talk from here. "
Youssef, with his hands together, continued to speak indifferently.
"When I was still a young pedestrian, I was bitten by a desert viper and my legs rotted.The doctor told me that I would never be able to walk again and that my life would not be long, and I tried to turn my promise of marrying my childhood friend Najar into an anachronism.Najah refused, worked as a dancer, and tried to pay for my treatment.And he saw Jonas\'s father at the feast of the nobles, and said three times that he was beautiful.
After all, since I was in Ishrana, it was the two of us who were in love, and that was the first thing I thought about.
I\'m not surprised.
"Jonas\'s father didn\'t know Ishrana\'s habits.The house of Ishrana that I invited wanted to tie the edge.Najah wished the nobility to become his own slave, and sent the money to my house as "farewell money" to make marriage antiquity.I heard it after my legs were healed. "
It was my mother\'s choice before I was born.There\'s nothing to say.
However, I heard a burst of dry sounds inside.
"Then I worked to buy Najah back.It took me more than ten years to do that..... "
The sound of bloodbathing sounds.The clenched fist is white.
A man who set up a great chamber of commerce that crossed the country in just ten years regrets his powerlessness.
"The day I came to pick up Jonas\'s father, Viscount Goodwin, gave me back Najar without wanting anything."But I couldn\'t bring Jonas back to Ishrana. "
"That\'s what I wanted.It\'s not my father\'s fault. "
His voice grows stronger as if he had forced himself to stop him.
I\'ll never forget it.
And Joseph, who had come that day to pick up his mother, took Jonas, who was ten years old, to Ishrana.
I said with a smile that I love you as a son, and I reached out to myself.
But Jonas took not his hand.
I wasn\'t told by anyone.
I chose to live as Jonas Goodwin here in the Aldine Kingdom. That\'s all I\'m talking about.
"I know, but this life was saved by Jonas\' father."
"If you want to repay me, go to my father - he\'s dead, so go ahead to the Goodwin family."It has nothing to do with me. "
"It has something to do with it. I think I have been saved by Najar, Jonas\' father, and Jonas."
― ― Have you been saved by me?
You can\'t say it, you can\'t say anything.
I know, but what was hardened inside cracked and burst, and my thoughts became black.
From the day that Yusuf saw his name on the parchment, a faint question broke, and came out with a mouthful.
"Ishrana\'s spelling for \'Youssef\' is\' Jonas\' in the Ordine Kingdom."
No matter what you do, your voice is dyed in resentment.
"Is this [Jonas] a name that you have named for yourself?"Or is it the joy of being able to save you, or is it your name?I\'ve never been able to ask my mother. "
Ever since I was a child, my mother was crying without a voice.
If this is the man you were thinking of, why did you name your child after yourself?
The words that I thought I shouldn\'t ask my weak mother all my life hurt even in my own ears.
Even though he asked in such a voice, Youssef only looked at himself with deep eyes.
"That\'s the name Najar gave you, because he decided to love you more than I did."
"How\'s it going?
"I prayed to God in a state where I had no choice but to give up, and I was bound to save the life of the man I loved.That\'s why Najar, who loved Viscount Goodwin as much as he could, and loved his child above all else, decided to live.That\'s why I didn\'t choose to come back to Ishrana even if I torn my heart and broke my body. "
"Didn\'t you choose? What do you mean?"
My mother certainly was unfamiliar with Ordine and had broken her body and mind.
But isn\'t that because I had no choice but to return to Ishrana?
Weren\'t you crying for this man to go home?
"Viscount Goodwin tried to return to Ishrana in the name of Najar\'s healing.However, Najah did not take it and tried to stay in Aldine.Without the Emperor Ishrana\'s letter to return her to the country, I would not have been able to pick up Najar, the noble lady of Ordine.I bet I can get Najar back without crushing Viscount Goodwin\'s face if I pick him up with a letter.That\'s why I threatened the Emperor cowardly in Weyburn. "
"Did you threaten the Emperor...?"
Wait, what the hell did this guy do?
Ishrana, who heard her status was tougher than Aldine\'s, was naive enough to threaten the Emperor.
It\'s not what a decent merchant does.
"I\'m the one who broke Najar\'s vow to live in Aldine with you, my dear."
I finally noticed the words that followed.
The reason why my mother, who had been lying down for a longer period of time at first, tried to stay in Ordine even though my father recommended it to me.
The reason this man didn\'t try to return to Ishrana.
Even if my mother broke her body and mind, she never said it or wrote it in her letter, because of it--
In order not to inform the children, or to harm them, or to raise their son born in Aldine.
It\'s for my own good.
And if it had stayed that way, my mother would probably have died.
This man\'s choice was right.
"Najar really loved Jonas\' father, and Jonas\'s father.No, I still love you. "
I didn\'t hear it from my mother\'s mouth.I can\'t tell if it\'s true.
However, there are people who want to believe in it and people who want to forget about it.
Even at such an age, she is a pathetic child.
But Jonas clearly understood that she was strong because she thought her mother was weak.
"It\'s all about my weakness.You can hate me or hate me.Jonas had a choice. But, Najah... "
"That\'s fine, I understand."And neither of them will ever feel that way. "
Even though I told you in earnest, Youssef\'s face was crooked and distorted.
"Jonas, I\'m really sorry..."
With your arms on your head, you can suddenly lower your head deeply, and unexpectedly make your voice louder.
"Don\'t move your head!Even though you\'ve just collapsed due to a blockage in your head, isn\'t it dangerous! "
"There\'s too much I\'ve taken from you."Whatever I wish to fulfill, I will fulfill.Even if you don\'t come to Ishrana, as long as you can-- "
"I am no longer a young child to be sheltered."
That\'s why you don\'t have to take anything. That\'s what I\'m supposed to tell you, but the man\'s voice continues to grieve.
"Jonas, even as an adult, you are my child, even if the blood doesn\'t connect."He is the son of my Haldad family.He is the son of his wife, the son of his two benefactors, and you are my benefactor.I am Jonas\'s second father, and one day, the third.For the rest of his life, Jonas hasn\'t called me Father, or thought about it.Just forgive me for thinking that.... "
I couldn\'t speak out when I kept my head down.
It\'s beautiful, it\'s easy to think so.
A stupid man, that\'s easy to say.
Youssef has low magic power and no power as a warrior.
A man without status or wealth raised up a chamber of commerce beyond the kingdom to reclaim the one woman, and established a great position.
Then he threatened the emperor of Ishrana and reclaimed his beloved from his father, the nobleman of the Ordine Kingdom.
Without a sword or magic, this man is much stronger than he is.
Until Youssef dies, no, even if he dies, his children and his family will protect his mother.
That\'s enough, that\'s enough.
I am not the first to grieve.
"--Youssef-sama, please take care of my mother."
"Of course I am."
I can\'t respond to Youssef\'s wishes, I just wish for my mother.
Damn, I\'m too weak.
Even about one-tenth of this man thought of something that would be good if he could keep this arm for a long time - and in order to leave the room, he stood up with the usual greeting.
Suddenly, my finger looked for the Demon Sword Dark Night Slash.
It was a temple, so even though I wasn\'t wearing a sword, I was unconsciously stretching out my hand.
The caught inside may mean that you have to take it off.
"Youssef, I have one favor to ask you."
"Tell me anything, Jonas, I\'ll do everything I can...!"
I was told with too much force and I laughed.
Whether it\'s a platinum coin or a Weyburn, you\'ll get a nice smile if you ask.
But what you want is higher than that.
"Well then, don\'t cum before your mother - don\'t make me cry again. No, please promise me you\'ll both laugh and spend time together."
"... okay, I promise..."
Unfaithful promises are given by unexpected merchants who hold a trembling fist on their knees and nod in wonder.
And Jonas baptized deeply, and went after the chamber.
There was something similar to a wave in the back of my throat, and I couldn\'t help it.