BXBX NOVEL Chapter 161 - I Am In Pain
Ashton\'s POV
"Do you think you can solve your problem by drinking liquor? You know that alcohol will never help you, Ashton." Zach said as he sat down in front of me. I asked him to come over to my place since Isabelle was in Astikoz. I was already drinking scotch on the rocks when he arrived.
He asked me to meet him at one of the bars in Majuscule, but I didn\'t want to worsen the situation between Megan and me. We just got back together, and I couldn\'t believe we had to face another problem before I could have the chance to prove to her I am sincere and I want us to become one family. I don\'t like the media to feature me again since I know it will affect my relationship with Megan.
"You can come to her house and visit Axel," Zachary said, and I shook my head.
"If you had only seen the face of Megan when she begged me to leave her house when Gael arrived, you will know why I am skeptical about visiting her place. It hurts me so much, and I couldn\'t deny I am in pain." I said.
"How about when you asked her to leave your mansion when she was pregnant eight years ago," Zachary added, and I let out a heavy sigh.
"Zach, you know I was young back then, and no matter how I wanted to be with Megan, I know I can\'t since my father will hurt her family. I only did what I thought was right, even if I was dying to be with her. Do you think I will give her up easily? I am in love with Megan, and I wanted to be with her every waking moment of my life, Zachary." I declared.
"And why do you look like a mess? And allow yourself to be in pain. You go to Megalopre and show Megan you will never surrender." He replied, and I shook my head.
"She doesn\'t want me, Zach, because if she does, Megan will call me right after Gael left, and it has been one week since she asked me to leave her house. He didn\'t tell Gael we are back together as a couple, so I guess Megan was only playing with my heart, and I am happy that the DNA test was positive, And I felt so happy that I am Axel\'s father." I declared, and his face darkened.
"You didn\'t believe you were Axel\'s dad?" He asked, and I could see the anger on Zachary\'s face, and I know how much he cares about Megan.
"You can\'t blame me for doubting Megan after I saw her hug Gael after driving me away. I thought she was playing games with me. I know Alice gave me the hair sample of Axel after I met Megan in the mall." I said.
"I never have it tested since I am confident that he was my son because of our resemblance when I was his age, but on the day that I thought I would be spending the night with Megan and Axel, I got heartbroken," I added.
"Seeing the only woman I loved since I was in my Senior High School comforted another man was too painful for me. I also have my pride, Zach." I replied, and his facial expression softened.
"Look, I could tell Megan doesn\'t intend to hurt your feelings, Ashton," Zachary responded, and I took my alcohol in one gulp.
"I am not sure about that, Zachary, unless she will tell me how she felt," I responded.
"How about Axel?" He asked.
"I always picked him up from school, and I always find time for my son, Zachary, even if I wanted to go to Megan\'s office and ask her where I stand in her life, but I am afraid to face the truth," I answered.
"I don\'t want to lose Megan, and losing her to Gael would be a big slap on my face and my ego, and not only that, you know that Megan is the only woman who can break my heart, and I am sure I will never be the same again," I added.
"I think she was afraid to tell me the truth, and I don\'t think she doesn\'t feel anything towards me, but I am sure she will still choose Gael over me. Megan could have told him about us, but instead, she pleaded with me to leave her house." I continued.
I wanted to forget that day, and all I wanted was to relive the moments I had with her in the retreat house; it was the best three days of my life. I hated that the fun I had with Megan ended right away. And I hope we can have another chance to be with each other again.
"What is your plan now, Ashton?" My best friend asked.
"Well, I have to be there for Axel, but I need to avoid Megan. I don\'t want her to have a hard time because of me. If she will be happy with Gael, and then be it, I don\'t care if I have to deal with the injury later. I know I deserved to have this kind of pain since I hurt her eight years ago, and I am willing to do everything for Megan." I said, and I saw my best friend shake his head.
"If you love her, Ashton, you have to fight." Zachary insisted, and I half laughed as I loosened my necktie.
"Why do I need to fight when I know I am losing the game, Zachary?" I asked, and he looked at me with confusion on his face.
"Ashton, you need to ask Megan first before you conclude." My best friend responded.
"She has my number, Zach, and I tried calling her, but she blocked my number since I couldn\'t contact her," I replied, and his face fell before he took a shot of his drink.
"Did Axel know that you have a misunderstanding with his mom?" Zach inquired.
"I don\'t know, but Axel never mentioned his mom every time I came to his school. We only talked about his day and football. Axel is an intelligent kid, and I know he wondered why I didn\'t spend the night with him that night, and my sister wanted to meet Axel one these days, but I don\'t know how to approach Megan after what happened." I responded.
I hate that I couldn\'t stop myself from thinking about the sweet moments we shared, and I was expecting we would spend more time in bed since we were back together, but it seemed we were only given three days to be with each other.
I know Zach was right, the alcohol would never help me get over my problem, and it seems the pain that I felt intensified as I thought about Megan and my son, and my desire to see her once again was driving me crazy.
And I felt so alone when Zach left me in my house since he has an early training tomorrow, and I couldn\'t deny, I missed football so much, and there were moments I wanted to go back, but now that I learned about Axel, I tried to focus on my son and my work.
One week had passed, and it was Monday, and I was on my way to pick up my son. I never arranged with Megan, and I felt glad she didn\'t complain that I found time to be with my son. I only asked Clara that I would be picking up Axel every day, and I don\'t care if I need to deal with traffic every day, but there are times when I am very late, I needed to use our family helicopter, and the looked on my little boy\'s face always warmed my heart.
"Hello, Dad!" Axel greeted me with a broad smile on his face.
"Hello, buddy! How\'s school?" I asked after I buckled his seatbelt, and it felt so lovely to be with my son. I turned around and ran back to the driver\'s seat.
"It was great, dad; I had a perfect score in our Science Exam." He replied.
"Wow! I am so proud of you, son." I said as I smiled at him.
"Thank you, Dad. Can I ask you a question?" He asked, and I smiled as I looked at him in the rearview mirror.
"Of course, you can ask me anything, son; what you want to know?" I responded.
"Can I have a sleepover in your house?" He asked, and I felt my mouth dry as I swallowed my saliva as I realized my son\'s question took me off guard, and I knew I had to be careful with my answer.
"Of course, I\'d love to have you, Axel, but we need to ask permission first from your mom," I said, and his face fell, and I don\'t want to see the sadness in my son\'s face.
"I know mom will say no. Can you sleep in our house instead? You still owe me, dad. You promise to read me some stories, but you didn\'t sleep in our house." Axel declared, and I felt so guilty that because of my misunderstanding with Megan, I could no longer be there with him.
"I wanted to go over to your house, but I don\'t think I can make it this week, Axel. I am sorry, but I promise you, one of these days, I will bring you to my place, and I will sleep in your house." I said, and I tried to smile at my son because I didn\'t want to disappoint my son.
"It is okay, dad, I understand. I hope you will also visit my mom." He said, and I suddenly felt nervous, and I didn\'t know how to answer him.
"Your mom is also busy, but don\'t worry, I will make it up to your mom and you," I responded, and I saw him smile and wish I could spend more time with Axel.
"Can we play football, dad?" He asked, and this time I can\'t say no to Axel, for how many times I said no last week because I was afraid if Megan would come home since I don\'t know how fo face her yet.
"Yes, we can!" I answered, and the happiness that I saw on Axel\'s face was priceless, and he was clapping his hands, and I could tell I needed to speak with Megan once and for all about our son since I wanted Axel to meet his uncles and aunt.
And if possible, I will ask permission from Megan to bring Axel to my parents\' house in Astikoz so that he can meet his grandparents.. And I need to face Megan, hoping we can also spend more time together, and I wish that she still wants me as her boyfriend.